Innocent.

It starts with a wide eyed girl with a wild imagination. She's shy and polite, but makes friends easily. She treasures her friends to the end, hoping they'll be friends forever. At recess they play imaginary pets and Sailor Moon. She acts out plays with her Barbies, wanting more to life than what she knows.

Boys never had couties. She never ran in fear of them. Instead, she wanted them to live in her imaginary world with her. It starts with Justin, the boy who plays the superhero. She is his faithful sidekick, following him into battle, protecting his every move. Others may see it as more than a friendship, but Justin is her first male friend. She won't have many because she will make them something more, but Justin will forever just be her friend. This would make sense to her later when he comes out of the closet. While she plays with Justin at recess, she starts to notice the other boys. They are different from Justin. They don't talk to her as much, they just smile. And boy does she like the smiles.

Chris is out of her league, his time spent with the prettier girls in the sixth grade. Gavin is sweet, sending her smiles but nothing more. And Scott, Scott pays attention to her. He invites her to his birthday parties, talks to her at recess and makes her feel important. Something swirls inside of her. Her heart beats faster when she sees him. She doesn't understand the feeling yet, but she knows she likes it. It changes how she looks at life. She starts wanting to see Scott everyday, all the time. She wants to call him and hang out with him. She might even want him to kiss her but she's not sure what that means.

She leaves behind elementary school without that kiss. But she remembers him. She remembers how he made her feel. She decides she wants that feeling again, all the time. She can't wait for Grade 7 to start. Maybe she'll get her first kiss.